Tuesday, May 17, 2011

going home= fat

So I have been home for like 4 days and I have eaten, 12 little debby oatmeal cookies, 7 pepperoni sticks, butter, cheese, meat meat meat, chocolate,  ice cream, and more bad stuff. I swear I am not going to fit on the plane when I get on it. I would estimate a 5-7 pounds gain, or at least that is how it feels. I think for me family stress, being home and gg's death is making me eat mindlessly, and it isnt even mindlessly, I continue to tell myself not to eat the way I have been eating but I do it anyways. I also had the worlds(or what must have been) biggest poutine, I feel large and in charge. I can't wait to get home and back into my own routine, I booked my flight for friday night and I am flying west jet again even though it is small, uncomfortable and it seems like the tv's never work. BUT I am really really happen to be going home, I get to see my best friend/ boyfriend, sleep in my own bed, drink out of my own re-usable bottle, run at my own gym, shower in my own shower, and eat the way I eat. The atkins diet sucks for me, it is really really fatty, salty and I feel bloated all the time. I havent been keeping up with my water either and I know that when I go back home, the elevation and the dryness of the climate is going to make me get huge headaches and I will be sad. On the weather note, it has rained everyday since I got here, I havent seen the sun once, NOT ONCE. My town that I live in, is the sunniest town in Canada, and I am certainly a sun worshiper, this was a shitty start to the summer, but I know that the sun won't fail me back at home!

Dear Morgan,
I know you don't read my blog but if you are reading this than know that I miss you and our ugly brown bathroom, as well as your snoring.

Love, me.

Ok bloggers, I love you all, and I can't wait to share some good news with you eventually.


  1. Aww...feel better soon hun...take care.

  2. Grace, I've been meaning to tell you that I am so sorry for your loss. I hope you're doing ok. I understand stress eating; it's hard to control in times like these. Hang in there. Hugs

  3. :( I'm so sorry everything is just going downhill. Just take it and roll with it. Just focus on family, then when you get home... worry about the diet... You probably are really bloated from too much salty foods :(

    But I am sure you will fit on the plane.. silly girl! ;)

  4. I am so sorry to hear about your Gran. Don't let yourself get sucked back in, you have been doing so well, I know that you can keep it up!

  5. There's an award for you on my blog.

  6. i just want to say thank you for continuing to share during a really tough time. you're being honest and people who continue to post when they go 'off plan' are the ones who are in this for the long haul. so sorry for your loss, and i know exactly what you mean when you say you even 'miss the snoring'. have a safe flight back.