So as per usual, my life is always changing. I lost my awesome job. I am going to lose everything I worked for but I think sometimes you have to actually hit rock bottom in order to pull yourself out. I need to work to get myself out and not let anyone but me save me. I am going to work myself out of this and make it better. I have another new boyfriend who I am currently staying with. He is awesome. I will try and update people more often.