Thursday, June 30, 2011

Wake up and weigh!

So I stepped back on the scale after about a month without even looking and I have to be honest, I was so scared. I took the scale out of the closet, set it down - checked to make sure the coast was clear and stepped on that bastard.

                               It read - 292.8 -

So I have gained, five whole pounds, I imagine it could be much worse. Anywhore I'm back and ready to get this cracking, I really want to start running outside at the track- but I am really scared people will judge me. Oh look at fat girl running, that is what I imagine they would say. I am so afraid of being judged or called names that is is hindering my weightloss and I need to kick that bad habit, does anyone else feel like that?

10 comments:

  1. It's good that you faced the music. It's always scarier not knowing than nothing. At least you have a starting point now, and it's time to get re-focused. I'm in the same boat :)

    July will be a fab month for the both of us.

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  2. The hardest part is stepping on the scale after so long but at least now you know where to start. I feel like that too, but its when i go jogging on the road i feel like everyone in their cars is judging me haha especially when theres a red traffic light and they have nothing else to do but look out the window. I just look down and chant "noone cares noone cares". It sort of work and if they shout stuff im not going to hear it because i have my headphones in.
    At least they cant say you're not putting in the effort :)

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  3. anywhore??.....baaaaaahahahahahah

    Sorry after I seen that, that was all I could think about.....luvs it!!!

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  4. Who cares if people look at you and judge you! You should run! And do what makes YOU happy. =)

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  5. Uhhh...I'm confused. Your about me says you want to lose 150lbs, but you weigh 192? Is that a typo?

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  6. What, people actually put the scale away? I wish! That stupid thing calls my name every morning only to insult and mock me. Congrats for facing it, now you can do something with the info. Yep, my fear of being judged keeps me away from the gym where I know having a personal trainer show me some exercises would help. Good luck to ya!

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  7. Lace up the shoes and start running and those pounds will roll right off!

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  8. Haha I thought I was crazy. I've never been good at math so I spent a solid minutes trying to figure out where I was going wrong.

    And hey... you seem really committed so it'll only be a matter of time before the scale says 192! :-)

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  9. I totally understand what you're saying and I've been there myself. When I first starting running I would felt incredibly self concious and thought everyone was looking at me. Everyone tried to reassure me that they weren't, that I'd get over it and it wouldn't bother me. And I thought, 'yeah right!'

    But they were right! I don't know how it happened, maybe I just got used to it or maybe I just realised that nobody was all that interested in watching me run, but it genuinely doesn't bother me now. It won't bother you either, just keep at it and your confidence will come in it's own time. Good luck! x

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