Sunday, August 14, 2011

No title today

I just want to thank everyone for giving me some of the best advice I will ever receive, you guys are quite possibly what is getting me through all of this. I am excited to go to Saskatoon next August and until than I am going to focus on me and me alone. Morgan is going to be a part of my life but I am and have been completely honest with him and we are at an understanding.

Since I posted my last post which wasn't to long ago I have been doing well, this gluten-free and dairy-free thing has been kind of a breeze so far and I am liking it. I wake up in the morning with no joint pain, and I am no longer feeling chronically phlegmy so I am happy with it so far! I have been feeling alot less fragile since I told you all what is going on in my mind and life. I have downloaded some good sad songs on my ipod as well as some empowering ones. I keep telling myself that I am allowed to feel sad and afraid and if I need to be pathetic and cry like baby for an hour I can. I also can invoke my Sookie Stackhouse or Nancy Botwin and get tough.

You want to know some things I rely on in times of need, other than you guys?
My strong women role models(even if they are only tv characters) I find Sookie Stackhouse from True Blood and Nancy Botwin from weeds are my two that make me feel strong and like I can do anything.

Also is what I call the country gods. I know it sounds crazy but whenever I have needed advice or guidance through my life I haven't had anyone to turn to so when I was little and still to this day I find a country radio station, turn it on and listen. Whatever is playing I take like a musically fortune cookie and it always solves my problems. For instance after I wrote my post I turned on a country station and the song "a little bit stronger" by Sara Evans was on, I cried even harder and thought to myself that I deserve to be happy and I deserve to be in dependant. Crazy but it always helps.

So I am still here on this weight loss journey and I am also on track to become who I am meant to be. Thank you all you have no idea how much I needed you.

PS fatgirlinaskinnyworld I adore you for texting me, I defiantly needed a friend. I lost my phone since I texted you back so if you texted me back I am not ignoring you I just can't find my phone!! :(

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  1. Your pictures are beautiful, you look like you just came out of Sam's bar in Bon Temps ;)

  2. You are GORGEOUS my dear!! I absolutely love the song you posted as well. Keep up the great work. You look fantastic and it seems like you are doing great!

  3. You are most welcome hunnie. You are gorgeous and I LOVE THAT SONG!!!!!

  4. Your green eyes are just stunning. And you are right - if you need to cry - cry. What you feel isn't wrong or right - it just is. Let yourself have that. And take your strength from anyone and anything...xoxo

  5. I love the concept of the country gods :D
    Your hair looks amazing x

  6. Love the country music fortune cookies! : ) What a great idea.

    Also your pics are beautiful. I also love True Blood, though I stopped watching Weeds after they moved away from Agrestic. I think that was the beginning of Season 4 maybe?

  7. Glad you are feeling strength and confidence - you deserve it. Be well!