Today

More updates. 

I moved. I live in St. Catharines now, in a house with two roommates (both straight guys), my car broke and I'm looking for new work. 

Here's me now. 

Went well I think. Had my friend Jeff over to snuggle last night, we woke up and made breakfast. Cleaned all day, ate healthy. Went for a run/walk and now I'm here. 

update :)

Holy canoli.
 I have been good and gone for like a year now. I am done college as of tomorrow when I will be doing the biggest exam of my life. I do not regret taking a year off from blogging because I have come so far emotionally and mentally. I have not gained a single pound back that I have lost and I am the lowest weight I have been as an adult yet!

As of September I will be starting a new blog chronicling my life, and I will be updating this blog once a week at least. There is so much happening and so much that has happened in my life since last September. I am moving back in with my mom on August 21, back in Ontario. If anyone forgets, I live in BC now, with my boyfriend of 6 years. Well I want a huge change, I need a huge change. I have a career now and I want to start a new life, even if that means starting over. Morgan is not coming with me, and no I have no idea what this means for my relationship with him. I will be a single lady, with a new career in a tiny Ontario town living with my mother. I am hoping to live there and save money until I can afford to move to Toronto and start my grown up life haha.

SO get ready for the new Wannabe former fat girl blog, coming September 1st/2012- I can't wait to reconnect with you all and see you progress. I am stoked! I will also be rolling out my lifestyle blog, which will be my place to share my adventures in love, sex, rants, fashion, beauty and all other things I do and see. See you all soon <3

My plan for tomorrow

I am going to write this here because if I tell all you than I have to be accountable.

9:00am
Wake up, drink a glass of water & take my cleanse while making breakfast. I think I shall have non-fat yogurt, egg whites scrambled, and two peices of turkey bacon.

9:15am
Eat breakfast with a glass of water, do my hair whilst dancing to my new jam.

9:40am-12:00pm
Hangout at home and make my shopping list-- Any ideas? anyone have a good low cal recipe? or snack?

12:00pm
Groceries, try and get them up to my condo without falling over or having my arms fall off. Maybe finding a man who will carry them up for me.
lunch.

1:30pm
GYMGYMGYMGYMGYMGYMGYM

3:00pm
Relax rewind and reclaim.
taking a bath sounds good, maybe I will by a bath bomb :)

5:00pm
Dinner: Veggies & chicken


9:00pm
GYMGYMGYMGYMGYMGYM

Sounds like a fun day right? not really.. but that is my life. I do feel good and healthy when I do days like this. What is your day like?

wtf.

Why can't I just stick with it. I feel afraid to eat, and now when I do eat I go crazy. Back in the day I stuggled with anorexia and over exercise, I think i am afraid I will get it again and I am always struggling with food. I feel obsessed. I am thinking about it all the time, it is healthy? is it fattening? how much will I gain if I eat this? I really want a fucking cheeseburger.. i had lasagna today at east side mario and it was so good, I allowed myself to have it because if I don't indulge in the things I love than one of these days I am going to snap and eat everything including the pedestrians on the way to the grocery store. So I am going to concentrate on drinking more water and taking my fibre and see if that helps at all which it should. I have let go of my strictness with myself that I had for the first week and I have got to get my mojo back, bitches.