Today

More updates. 

I moved. I live in St. Catharines now, in a house with two roommates (both straight guys), my car broke and I'm looking for new work. 

Here's me now. 

Went well I think. Had my friend Jeff over to snuggle last night, we woke up and made breakfast. Cleaned all day, ate healthy. Went for a run/walk and now I'm here. 

update :)

Holy canoli.
 I have been good and gone for like a year now. I am done college as of tomorrow when I will be doing the biggest exam of my life. I do not regret taking a year off from blogging because I have come so far emotionally and mentally. I have not gained a single pound back that I have lost and I am the lowest weight I have been as an adult yet!

As of September I will be starting a new blog chronicling my life, and I will be updating this blog once a week at least. There is so much happening and so much that has happened in my life since last September. I am moving back in with my mom on August 21, back in Ontario. If anyone forgets, I live in BC now, with my boyfriend of 6 years. Well I want a huge change, I need a huge change. I have a career now and I want to start a new life, even if that means starting over. Morgan is not coming with me, and no I have no idea what this means for my relationship with him. I will be a single lady, with a new career in a tiny Ontario town living with my mother. I am hoping to live there and save money until I can afford to move to Toronto and start my grown up life haha.

SO get ready for the new Wannabe former fat girl blog, coming September 1st/2012- I can't wait to reconnect with you all and see you progress. I am stoked! I will also be rolling out my lifestyle blog, which will be my place to share my adventures in love, sex, rants, fashion, beauty and all other things I do and see. See you all soon <3

Im tired!

So I woke up this morning, and had a healthy philly cheese steak for breakfast( I feel like I should eat heavy stuff early in the day), than I went to the ggyymm. I was there for an hour and burned 660 calories according to the machine, I know its not accurate but I still feel accomplished. Than I had ridiculous amounts of energy so I drove to Kimberly and got that new protein shake, came home tried it, was grossed out. Like 15 minutes later I had an energy burst, I dont know what was in that vega shake but here is my theory.

Vegans are known to be like the healthiest people. Has anyone seen Scott Pilgram VS. the World? well I think they have it right. VEGAN POWERS-- I think after drinking that gross shake my VEGAN POWER kicked in and I was bouncing off the walls, I danced to achey breaky heart on repeat and cleaned for like half hour... it was weird.

So thannn My boy came got here and we went to the gym together and I burned another 400 calories. Than I ate 6 mini cookies and a salad, and 6 pieces of bacon.

I think I came in around 1500 calories for the day so I am right on target, yo. :)

HEY do you like my new look for the blog? Its springy/summery eh? yeah I needed a change.
What do you guys think of vlogs? are they better than just words? or are the words more powerful?

Have I told you all lately how much I love you? nahh I haven't, but I do, yall are great :)

I will be weighing in a couple days after my period is gone so that I get a good acurate reading, I can't take the disappointment right now.

My plan for tomorrow

I am going to write this here because if I tell all you than I have to be accountable.

9:00am
Wake up, drink a glass of water & take my cleanse while making breakfast. I think I shall have non-fat yogurt, egg whites scrambled, and two peices of turkey bacon.

9:15am
Eat breakfast with a glass of water, do my hair whilst dancing to my new jam.

9:40am-12:00pm
Hangout at home and make my shopping list-- Any ideas? anyone have a good low cal recipe? or snack?

12:00pm
Groceries, try and get them up to my condo without falling over or having my arms fall off. Maybe finding a man who will carry them up for me.
lunch.

1:30pm
GYMGYMGYMGYMGYMGYMGYM

3:00pm
Relax rewind and reclaim.
taking a bath sounds good, maybe I will by a bath bomb :)

5:00pm
Dinner: Veggies & chicken


9:00pm
GYMGYMGYMGYMGYMGYM

Sounds like a fun day right? not really.. but that is my life. I do feel good and healthy when I do days like this. What is your day like?

wtf.

Why can't I just stick with it. I feel afraid to eat, and now when I do eat I go crazy. Back in the day I stuggled with anorexia and over exercise, I think i am afraid I will get it again and I am always struggling with food. I feel obsessed. I am thinking about it all the time, it is healthy? is it fattening? how much will I gain if I eat this? I really want a fucking cheeseburger.. i had lasagna today at east side mario and it was so good, I allowed myself to have it because if I don't indulge in the things I love than one of these days I am going to snap and eat everything including the pedestrians on the way to the grocery store. So I am going to concentrate on drinking more water and taking my fibre and see if that helps at all which it should. I have let go of my strictness with myself that I had for the first week and I have got to get my mojo back, bitches.